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New blog!

I'm trying out this new blog platform from Six Apart - VOX!  Same company as TypePad.  This one's more fun, I think.  See you there! :)

http://smileymaile.vox.com/

Pooka trying to IM

I was on an IM conversation with my friend earlier and left for a bit then Pooka sat near the computer and saw Amit's messages.  She told me I had a message from Amit, whom she knows, and so I told her to just say something really quick.  Here's what proceeded:

Pooka: hi   this   is    pook    werwe   are    you

Amit: pooka!

Amit: i'm at home

Amit: where are you?

Pooka: at       home

Amit: what are you doing?

Pooka: iam      on        the    comptter

Amit: are you playing games?

Pooka: no     i,am      sending     to    you

Amit: you are sending me what?

Pooka: words    to    you

Amit: oh

Amit: do you type with one finger?

Pooka: yes     i      do       type    with      one        finger      but       i       swich     fingers

Amit: oh very good. how many times do you hit the space bar?

Pooka: three       times

Amit: you only need to push it once

Pooka: oh    i    see

Amit: what grade are you in again?

Pooka: secocd    grade

Amit: how do you like your teacher?

Pooka: very    much

Amit: what are you learning about right now?

Pooka: i  am         not       at     school        rigthnow

Amit: i know what. but when you are in school, what are you learning about?

Pooka: reading

Amit: oh very good

Kevin Regino Warque

Yesterday would've been Kevin's 16th birthday if life would have him.  But in a strange twist of circumstance, he didn't even make it to breathe a single gasp of air.  I lost him during childbirth and part of me has remain stuck in that hollow, unbelieving emptiness.

I never saw him but I felt him so much.  I miss someone whom I've never really met, never seen a glimpse of.  But whatever reason it was all for, I still have yet to figure it all out. 

Saturday in Clovis

Hanging out at Clovis to spend time with family.  It's a party for an aunt turning 80 and her grand-daughter who just turned 18 somewhere between February 28th and March 1st.  She's one of those lucky ones born on that day, the 29th of February.

I should also add that besides family there are a whole bunch of other people from their side of the family, too, the non-bopis eating kind (if you don't already know what bopis is, you might not really want to know).  So there's so much food, alot of piano-playing, karaoke-singing, and dancing.  And earlier, my cousins and nieces actually performed a few very traditional Filipino dances, complete with costumes and music - quite impressive! 

And as usual, as I do at any family gathering, I took a nap.  Well...make that TWO naps.  Ask any member of my family and I'm known to just pass out on the couch - no matter how loud the poker game's getting, if somebody's team scored another "great" touchdown, or if someone (Marshall!) is tilting the couch to tip me over!  Oh, uh-uh!  When I'm out, I'm out. 

So in a way, I'm having another mini vacation this weekend.  Nice...

Fuhcking gorgeous day!

And I'm at work.  Been trying so hard to come up with many excuses to leave the office.  I've gone out for an extra long lunch already and then went out to get coffee an hour later.  Too bad I left my pack of cigarettes from last night.  I was going to bring it in with me today but I changed my mind.  I could be smoking right now and enjoying my wonderful mocha with it.  Cigarettes and coffee are such a wonderful oral sensation combination...

one rainy Monday

It's raining so much today.  The sky is so dark with clouds and I love it!  My mood is definitely not matching the weather today.  But wet and gloomy skies seem to make me feel so peaceful and content for some reason - just glorious!

Happy 32nd Birthday, Butch!

It was my best friend's birthday yesterday. He's halfway across the world from me, living right next door to my house back home in the Philippines. I've known him since he was 16, half of his lifetime.

Funny how distance, litttle communication, and very few visits cannot do anything to affect the depth of our relationship. Every time we see each other it just seems like I saw him yesterday and we just pick up right where we left off, not skipping a single beat. And we're back to talking about stars, turtles, being able to fly, stupid people, our exasperation with having to do grown-up stuff...

I am so thankful to find a friend like him and I know that I will have him throughout this lifetime and the next.

Happy Birthday, dearest Butchikoy. 5 6! :)

d-i-v-o-r-c-e

I guess I might as well mention that I filed for divorce last month. Technically speaking, I'm still married right now but up until I filed, we were married for about a year and five months - not long really, but long enough.

Gary has moved out and now it's just me and the kids again. It's been great. We've done a whole cleanout of the apartment and the place has definitely a better feel to it, more positive homey energy. I feel cleansed of all bad things I carried with me before and it's so exhilirating to be without the heavy, negative cloud over me.

7 months later

It's been 7 months since I last wrote in my blog and it's really not that I didn't have anything to write about - duh. My life's always been full of craziness and amusements that there's just no way I'd have nothing to bitch or talk about.

It's just been really hard for me lately to find the right state of mind to write and share my life. Maybe in a few days I'll get my balls back.